Process

Is it really possible to enjoy the process more than the destination? While this is something that is greatly emphasized everywhere else, its another story when you are in the shoes of the one who is walking through it. I guess its when the tree meets the storms and only what has been built will be put to the test. Something that greatly confuse me is this: Everyday i wake up to find myself in search of a equilibrium. To put it plainly, its like a need to find myself somewhere. What happened yesterday and the rest of what that was beautifully constructed didn't seems to last or in any sense satisfy TODAY. And if not taken note of, there seems to be places where you run to place your security, finding your identity that would be the mask that can be put on through the days or sometimes even weeks.


But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. ⁸ What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ ⁹ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in^[a] Christ—the righteousness that comes from God on the basis of faith. Philippians 3:8-10

 "BECAUSE OF THE SURPASSING WORTH OF KNOWING CHRIST JESUS MY LORD"
  
Wow, this is something that we shared during ag and it really shook me. Not that i have received a revelation of God or anything but rather the way Paul described was totally unbelievable. To know God so intimately and treasure that encounter/knowledge/experience that all else does not matter is like hey teegan, welcome to your beginning of your christian walk. There seems to be so much that i don't know God and it just amazes and challenges me to bring it to the ground.






God, i thank You for doing such a special work in my heart. I know that through all the things that are happening, You are just drawing closer to me. More than the things that are good to hold, more than the things that are needed. You O Lord come closer and it makes the whole world of difference. Let me not draw back or in any way find a lesser place to meet with You but let me now come out and be the person that seeks Your heart more than anything else. I want a everyday Jesus more than a changed life.