I lost it. Ever since i went to SIM Econs and Finance i should have known. That God was a crazy God and things that does not make sense is what He wants for my life.
Today was a prayer time with the core group and it was really a time of refreshment and empowering. Lights were off and worship was just natural. Only thing was that God stirred me to do something crazy within the group. I honestly struggled and it was a time where i know the voice of God has spoken to edify and bring such a timely word in people's life. For a moment i thought i went mad. The unseen fear that gripped my heart was something i don't think i will forget. It was just uncomfortable if i don't get the voice out of my heart. One of the only times where i am so sure the word comes from God and not myself.
I understand that Jesus was crazy. I mean the things He did and how He healed blind men by spitting and touching their eyes. Its just not realistic non practical to do that. Isn't a simple prayer enough to have the same effect? Yet God says in His Word that His ways are higher than our ways and His thoughts are higher than our thoughts. I know that today marks a scar in my Christian life as i remembered loving God that much before that i wanted to just obey him and do what He tells me to do. Such obedience and simplicity. Been ages since i last experienced that. =)
God, cause such lifestyle to seek You daily be found in mine today. Let all that You desire begin to come to past as i don't stop repenting & learning from all that You wanna teach. Let me hold on to the things that will keep me close to You.
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