Deeper

Yes. As we all grow older and deeper in this walk with God, we crave for something real. Something that we can die for and how God is so real in our lives or nothing at all. There's either faith or nothing. Real or walk away.

A question i really don't understand is that why is this happening to me again. I used not to care about so many things and accept a lukewarm life that i was living. I enjoyed as there was always the grace of God and how i could still put a leg into the world and know that i am not prefect anyway. It sounds like its not suppose to be like that in the first place but it has been and i have been existing comfortably.

Recently, my grandfather's brother died and i felt really bad that i did not went to the hospital to visit him when i could have the chance. It was only today that i wanted to go when i heard of news that he passed away in the early hours.

God, when i remain faithless. I need Your faithfulness in my life. Help me when i consciously reject Your dealing in my life and bring me back to Yourself. I wanna be Your child all my life. Tear this pride, break this bondage. I'm running to You again.