How could i live without you
How would i survive
Without your love
Without your touch
Your the one that heals me
Cleanses my heart
And sets me free

So i come right before you
With my hands lifted up
As my heart humbly bow
At the work of the cross
As you hug there and died
You were paying the price
For my life
For my life

For your love is higher than the heavens
Deeper than the sea
And all i want is you in my life
No one else could satisfy my soul
Make me feel this way
Only you Lord
Only you

John 3:3
In reply Jesus declared, "I tell you the truth, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he isborn again. "

very very very true.

RAW camp

the food wasnt really good
the games wasnt really one of my favourites
didnt really have enough sleep
at night keep finding food
no money buy drink from vending
sore throat

BUT...
REAL and i meant REAL GOD encounter
visions for NP!
expectations all met

its better than just making yourself happy and high and going back just remembering u had a good time. God, thank you for RAW camp. now its time to fight it out.

off for RAW camp. =)

My only concern, i scare we will not be able to contain the overflowing in RAW CAMP!!!!

Gooooood soil please =D

So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed. John 8:36

i believe many, if not all will be set free in RAW camp.

After night comes day.

i want to be different
i want to score for my exams
i want to be a history maker in NP
i want to a responsible guy
i want to show God's love in my own family
i want to see my friends coming to this love
i want. A lot of things. but...

i'm unwilling. abit. how? God, help.

God never did give up on me. now its my turn not to.

Meaning of faith - belief that is not based on proof

will it really? hmm..

Indifferent. Heal my heart and make it clean. =/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zt-mKLpC8WY

i dunno wad to say.

its a different thing to use your mind and another to use your heart. Well i guess God wants both of them. but i think he want our heart more.

i had a very interesting question- do u really know yourself?

if dont mind can share. =)

11Oct 2008- Teegan told God he will follow him for the rest of his life, no matter what. Even times when he don't understand, he will choose to follow.

i dunno. he may fail, but he said i will still choose to follow this God. times when i'm reckless, when i'm wanting to run back to the World. please remind and hold me. i know u will. so i thank u in advance. =D

The redeemed one
Teegan

God how do i know its you? the voice sounds the same. i really don't dare.

Here I am to worship,
Here I am to bow down,
Here I am to say that you're my God,
You're altogether lovely,
Altogether worthy,
Altogether wonderful to me.

even if i dunno. i will choose to follow. let my heart be steadfast.

today had baptism service~
tf and yiwen and 9 others got baptised. haha. so funny. normally they so noisy one den go on stage become like mouse liddit. LOL. =X

Today jian wei came!!! so happy. haha. we had lunch. crap crap crap. den he went mrt alone. oh man. srry ar. haha. had to eat tou hua wif gillian. hardly got ppl want to date me. lol.

soooo. he wants to have a relationship wif us. how could i have forgotten. =/

choice.

This has been on my mind for quite some time. cant seem to figure out. any1 wanna help?

Now i cannot say. u didnt forgive. Now i cannot say. u didnt came to love. Now i cannot say. i can do it without u. Now i cannot say. U are not the fire in my soul.

Thank you Lord. in you. i found a forever. =D

Emotions vs truth.

which one will u choose?

today was a day like nv b4. Ppl were healed in my sight. In the name of Jesus. it was not the first healing rally i had. faith is rising. And the pastor shared my verse of the year. Mark 9:23, Jesus said to him, "If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes."

i think i did a breakthrough today. i prayed for someone i will NEVER pray for. Its the holy spirit. It stirred. so hard. so impactful. so deep within. something that i cannot ignore. thx God for giving me the courage and boldness.

there's gonna be a great revival if u believe. the words are. if you believe.

Heal my heart and make it clean i pray.

NP, here i come. wif my BIG BIG God. And my army.

i need your purpose and vision.

Lord, light the fire again. i need your heart. i need your eyes.

If my closest relatives and people i know. look from hell. me in heaven.

what will they say? i dont want to imagine. its scary.

teach me how to love. seriously.

STUPID ORANGE! APPLE NICER LOR.

God was good, God is good, He's gonna be good.

lost my wallet today sia. -.- die die. wait at the wrong bus stop for a bus for like 30min. den realise the bus don't stop there. sian diao. spend a lot of time complaining to God. but in the end, as always, he won my heart again.

Tml PA duty. yes ar. super fun. super enjoying in serving. its my honor. Thank you!~

ARGH alot of things to be studied. stress stress. not motivated to study also. haiz. God help me!

i don't want to regret when i still have the time to do something about it. please please empower me God. Help me to surrender all that i have.

Dont't let my love grow cold
I'm calling out
Light the fire again.
Don't let my vision die
I'm calling out
Light the fire again.

How can i live without you?

where will i be if i allowed my heart to lead me?

Thank you Lord

it came suddenly. certainly not the place i expected. not the day i thought it will be. The love of God. My life will not be the same again. cause God promised!

exam coming!! a lot of things to revise. coz nv listen in class. even if listen also cannot remember so many. haiz. but i will have 7 weeks of break after that! haha. shiok ar. =)

God, where are u?
random. =X

Its either for God or for the devil. You choose who u want to live for.

Its hard to live for God but its harder to live for the World.

Do u know there is alot of things need to be done?
Why are u still slacking?
Why are u still comparing with others?
Why is God different when u are in front of others?
Why are u still not obedient when u know wad God can do through your life?
Why TEEGAN?

Strengthen me i pray.

It feels so good to sing King of Majesty for youth and sunday service. Awesome. What a revelation!

You know that i love you
You know that i want to know you so much more
More than i have before.

These Words are from my heart
These words are not made up
i will live for you
i am devoted to you

King of Majesty
I have one desire
Just to be with you my Lord
Just to be with you my Lord

Jesus, You are the savior of my soul(hey, hey,hey)
And forever and ever
I give my praises to you

If there was something i can boast. That will be my God. (Other den i always say i look very shuai. =X )

In him, i found hope.
In him, i found joy.
In him, i found peace.
In him, i found purpose.
In him, i found grace.
In him, i found mercy.
In him, i found life.
In him, i found love.
In him, i found holiness
In him, i found a future.

God, i want to be your friend. =D

The definition of Passion,
Any powerful or compelling emotion or feeling, as love or hate.


i don't care what people will say
I'm running after you
Its you i'm following today
I'm running after you

I'm won't turn back and go my way
I'm running after you
Its YOU i'm following today
I'm running after you.

Thank you Lord.

Your heart bled
Since dunno when
You know
How much it hurt
How much he cried
How broken he was
Only you
His healer
His redeemer

i'll wait
i'll beg
i'll pray
i'll try
You will.

Your presense
Cant be bought
Always treasured
My soul
Satisfied
Now i know
Now i believed
Now i can
That u are always there for me
And i will dwell in your house forevermore. Thank you God!

im tired, very tired. keep sinning against him. Feeling so helpless against the devil. Giving in and living like nth has happened. White washed tombs.

Im exhausted. beaten and bruised in my spirit.
My simplicity ran away, leaving only my brain.
I thought of it over and over again. yes and YES.
My heart has left. and what is there that is left for me?
Emptiness upon death. Sunken and Broken.
God where are you? I cant see nor touch you.
You promised you will never leave nor forsake me.
Im hanging on to it. As the deer pants
So change my heart if it has already decompose
Touch me once again i pray. Till my soul acknowledge.
You are God.

17 “But when he came to himself, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger! 18 I will arise and go to my father, and will say to him, “Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you, 19 and I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Make me like one of your hired servants.”

CG was great =D i feel more child-like already. =)

Youth service was great! esp the prayer. pray that more and more ppl will come for the prayer. haha. got to know yuenmum abit more! that funny guy. i like!~

its time to wake up.

Pride and lust in thoughts and speech. God help!! Thx for the outing today! had lots of fun and did lots of stupid thing. HAHA.

Restoration, Commitment, Submit , Vision for NP!!

These were the main things i received in Church camp! its was awesome la. Just that not as emotional as youth Camp but it was gooooood! funny speaker man. That joker. Like Pastor Sam lor. HAHA. im waiting for my youth camp liao! =D

Hmm. A Canteen that's empty. i wonder.. God speak!! =)

when i got tired of life, got tired of you, i gave up. on u. on my life. everything.

Looking for something else to fill, i found out it all had a limit. nth lasts forever. and u found me once again.

i feel so far away from you. =/

As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God -Psalm 42:1

That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. -2 Corinthians 12:10

i said sorry. =) it wasnt the way i wanted but anyway thx God for helping me lay down my pride. still too young to think so far ahead la. haha. i gotta learn how to love God before anything else. Cause God is love!

Today altar call was simple, but was meaningful for me. i wanna live and reaffirm that i live for u again!! not feelings. something solid. something unmovable. =D

oh no. i think i accidentally hit her bag today. opps!! and i feel bad abt it. dunno she got see i say srry anot. =/

Service was great! song wasn't nice. BUt Spirit of God was there! i realised in my life, there was so many other things that kept me away from God. and i forgot who God is to me. my all. my everything. God, make me living vessel! a Christian who will honor u i pray! in NP, family, relatives, sec school friends. God, create in me a pure heart =)

i want that simple, obedient heart back.

CG was great yesterday!! the passion/dreams i once had. its slowly fading away. BUT im finding it back. ALL of them. whether is it NP, family, relatives, sec school friends etc. Must steady abit. Cause life with God is always so crazy. HAHA.

i saw YANN CHWEN today la!! like SOOOOO long nv play basketball with him liao. Steady man. So happy to see him sia. haha. pray that will have more chance to meet up and interact with him. God hear my cry! =)

missing yuenmun. that funny guy. LOL. CG is slightly different without him. probably crap more. less maturity. i like but i dont think its good to crap ALOT la. haha. pray that everything goes smoothly for him in China!

Going to genting in like 3 days time! so excited! get to spend time with my family and relatives but miss service! pray that God will use of me to make good use of this time i have with them. must steady abit cause i MUST sing for his joy has come. =)

steady la. God revealed something so basic that i have gone wrong in my wanting to breakthrough prayer. a pure motive. PURE!! means you change not cause of any other things. BUT is cause you love God and God wants you to change! How could i have miss that!! Praise the Lord! =)

btw yuenmun is super funny during poly prayer today la. he tell everyone lets sing a song den when he say the song, every1 laugh den nv sing liao. LOL BUT i saw his ability to lead, and not paiseh spirit. steady man. haha. =D

anyway, SOng of the week!

My life is in you Lord
My strength is in you Lord
My hope is in you Lord
In you, its in you

After much scolding, disappointments and failure, you exchanged the World's wisdom for my initmacy with you. pleasing man more then God. =(

im quite sad to know this. =(

Looks like no one would really believe unless u touch them. Something so deep. So personal.

u are my everyday! feeling quite sian these few days but whenever i talk to God i feel its worth it living on earth! haha. abit kua zhang but nvm.

Today i saw my friend and the gal he secretly like; talking. he was quite nervous. wanted to present the better side of himself. hoping she would see and maybe like him abit more? LOL

i think God really really looked beyond my faults, my selfishness, my sins, my pride etc. As idoit as i am, God nv choose to gave up. Since sec 1 when i was exposed to Chrisitianity and attended church and left church and came back once again. What a plan! Amazing! i prefer Jesus for my girlfriend! some1 who accepts and love me wholeheartedly. at least for now la. haha. =P

Bring the same purpose into my friends life i pray. cause you never fail.

Unless the LORD builds the house, its builders labor in vain. Unless the LORD watches over the city, the watchmen stand guard in vain -Psalm 127:1

1cor 3:6 "I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God made it grow."

The word unless. we can wake up early to pray. but its only u that can make things happen. Service was great but i felt at some point of time, i worshipped music instead of God. i guess thats something that really took my mind off from God. so natural yet so dangerous. =X

One lover. JC =)

Service was great today. Felt the freedom just to worship God. Thank God for the altar call. =) i realised i need his love to love others.its not something i can accomplish by my own strength or anything else. which is something i struggle to do. =X

NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!

i dont know how strong u are. u know how weak i am.

Not to be wise in your own eyes.

living in humility is so hard la. -.- at least for me. but thx God for letting me see the proudness in me. God dont want to oppose me thats why he dont want me to be proud. YaY! i'll lay it down to be more like u Jesus. =)

Hallelujah, i believe God is gonna do something great in NP, in me(my talents, motives) gonna believe with ALL my heart a revival is coming. No more 4 more months! God move through NP and make me live only for u. lets stomp into NP together God! btw u know wad im asking for. =X

My faithful God. =D

And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

argh. feelings again. looks like i really trust my feelings more den the Word of God. It looked like following a religion blindly. without feelings, just doing. but i realised why Word of God > feelings.

Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away.

Our feelings come and go. but the Word of God remains forever. i have been thinking why Jesus asked Peter, "who do you say that i am?" if a normal person says that, there will not be a certain answer cause normal people changes after some encounter, years of experience. But Jesus is the same yestersday, today and forevermore. Thats why he can ask this question. lol. quite cool right? haha.

let it rain, let it rain
open the floodgates of heaven

Sat

it felt so empty. nv in my life have i ever felt that way b4. is it not possible to be that close to u anymore. it seems like u dont care. no matter when/how i cried. but i just wanna tell u. i'll still follow u.

your son

wads after the pretty gal? another pretty gal?
wads after the first billion i get? another billion?
wads after improving my basketball skills? cont to improve?
wads after today? tml and tml and tml?
wads after making friends? making more and more friends?

if i die tml nth of these matters i guess. or i think i'll live; at least for tml. Whats my real purpose in life? to strive for all these things and to keep me occupied in life? will i work if there's no money? will i play basketball if its not my interest?

IF it was so, how can i live without having a purpose?
i found my creator. something thats of eternal. How about u?

The loneliest moment in life is when you have just experienced what you thought would deliver the ultimate, and it has let u down.
-Ravi Zacharias

God is very very pretty!! i just realised!! he catches ALL my attention!! i believe he has the beauty!! open my eyes so that i may see u Lord!! awaiting to catch a glimpse of u. =D

If u only run to God when u are in need of something, then God will just be a God who solves your problem; nothing more.

You probably won't dream for roti prata if your father is a billionaire.

no words to express your unfailing love for me. only u know me best. i'll choose to follow u always. =)

There is a way that seems right to a man,But its end is the way of death. -Proverbs16:25

Then Jesus said to them, “All of you will be made to stumble because of Me this night, for it is written: ‘ I will strike the Shepherd,And the sheep of the flock will be scattered.' -Matthew 26:31

revival

wow. saw this blog today from jim's blog link. livin4christ.blog.com

i could just feel the passion she have for the school by just reading wad she post. so inspiring sia.

God did give me a passion for NP too. the burden, the living testimony in school and etc. but as time pass, i lost it(in other words the devil stole it!). almost completely until recently where we have our NP prayer grp. Yay! revival it was but im hoping for more. i mean MORE.

Those Year 3 ppl are leaving NP soon. which leaves the NP prayer grp to be left wif lesser ppl and i dont think there are ppl who will be coming in as year 1 in harvester.

God, i want a worship team this yr. i would need ppl which includes.. 4 backup singer, pianist, drummer, base, electric guitar and alot of ppl clapping. God, i really really want. Apart from u i can do nth. nth at all. revival in our hearts for NP i pray. In the mighty name of Jesus i pray.Amen.

3-8th of June 2008. =)

i slept at 1am. woke up at 0715 just to sms. -.- a question lingers in my mind, "how much do i love my God?"

God,if thats u i pray that u make it super super super clear to me can? im real confuse. u said in your Word, Hebrews 13:17-"Obey your leaders and submit to their authority. They keep watch over you as men who must give an account. Obey them so that their work will be a joy, not a burden, for that would be of no advantage to you." my leader says its too early and yet there's a voice still urging me. God,if its u please continue urging me. if NOT in the name of Jesus, i will not allow the devil to steal my sleep time! ROar!

in the name of Jesus i pray, Amen.

exam coming. means holidays coming! haha. means dont need wake up so early everyday. CNY also coming up soon. this CNY will be so DIFFERENT. why? coz its the first CNY i'll spend being a christian. and i'll be different. needa ask God help me. to be that salt and light =D

whats so different about your CNY this year? or do u want it to be the same? =)

Services were great over this weekend. esp friday when adrian sang the song BIG, "there is nothing my God cannot do". I sang that same part when God created a jam that did not allow me to go pay respects to my late grandfather in front of my mum. was like so cool la. haha. and thx God for the refreshing touch for NP once again. didnt know devil made NP prayer look like just another prayer in just one week time. gonna be on fire for NP again!!

I MISS EVENING AGAIN!! to get my hair cut and visited my ah ma. -.- think God challenged me to be different. i think whether im a christian or not, the way i behave in front of them like no different liddit. As in i think im still staying in my own comfort zone, dont want to go that extra mile to communicate or find out how are they doing nowdays. hope during CNY i will have a breakthrough!

had a MCQ test today..its REALLY REALLY God..coz im quite lousy at that subject and my class got one guy super gd in that module one..and i got more marks den him sia..glory to God..i cant do it with my own strength..but this is gonna lead to pride i guess..hope God will continue to help me to humble myself before him..=X

i guess God really hates sins..and God really really love us although we sin against him everyday..

Through the LORD's mercies we are not consumed, Because his faithfulness fails not. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. "The LORD is my portion," says my soul, "Therefore i hope in him!" -Lamentations 3:22-24

Thx God for the morning service..=D he touched me so deeply once again..and God is always great! he created a jam which did nt allow me and my mum to go pay respects to grandfather(they usually burn the joss paper and stuff) Hallelujah!! Thank you!!

im so sorry Lord..help me to be a child before you, just so simple..so simple..
in the name of Jesus i pray Amen.

Today NP open house was great! alot of different cca broth that i missed as i didnt go to Ngee ann open house last year..there was one cca where involves in alot of drum and different instruments and they were playing different beat which is quite interesting and it caught almost all the attention among everything..but something caught my attention..i rmb adrian ong told me b4 he saw a vision..ppl worshipping at our school atrium..which was where the cca was showcasing..and getting so much attention..so i asked God..will his vision come true? i almost teared..

I come before your throne
To worship at your feet
To look upon your nailed pierce hands O Lord
How awesome is your love

For You
Your grace restores my soul
You set your heart on me
You set me in your righteousness

Fall afresh on me
Move within my heart
Let your tenderness consume me

Pour your love on me
Like rain upon my face
Till everything i am
is lost in ur embrace
Fall afresh on me

W.A.D service was simply great!! this week has been a tough week as studies came into my life wif all the projects and test coming up along wif different struggles i needa overcome..tired~ lucky got God sia..or i'll be running around in circles..=D

during altar call God just revealed how faithless i was..i was nt that simple anymore..looking at how hopeless situation are..and not looking at how big my God is..i often ask God abt my family salvation..even for my relatives..but God seems to be more concern abt my faith in him..and i realised i DONT HAVE..no wonder my verse for this year is Mark 9:23

how abt u guys? enough to move mountain?

God i really dont want to fall again..i want to stand..really stand for u alone..help me to lean on your strength..God u are my giant..not the devil anymore..and my life is nv the same since i had u..empower me God..i know u will..

in the name of Jesus i pray.Amen

Sun evening service was unique..were Praise and worshiping and then it was prayer n prayer n prayer..God revealed to me things i always had a wrong mindset abt it..and was the first time i prayed till no breath..haha but all was WORTH it..

Cell grp, campus, family, sec school friends and myself..something NEW is gonna birth..and the most impt thing is prayer..faith without action is dead..something i knew but nv do..-.- this week cg is gonna be a little different..=)

W.A.D(we are different) is our new name for our youth and tertiary..i kinda like the meaning behind it..and when the leaders shared..some of it caught my attention..

u know why ppl are attracted to ah lians? coz they are different..while ppl have their hair black, they have it other colors..

we can find 10 reasons to not do it but why not just find that one reason to do the will of God.And make that reason be "becoz God told me to do it"

God revealed to me how cold this world already is and times when my heart has also turn cold..BUT we are called to be the salt and light of the world..to be that cold or hot water that is able to provide or meet others needs..hallelujah! (something like ignite rite? lol)

i belong to the generation Caleb..whooo..and there will be campus ministry!! which mean includes NP la..and our first prayer grp will be held this friday. more to post..nt enough time to post lol

Acts 27:25
So keep up your courage, men, for I have faith in God that it will happen just as he told me.

Mark 9:23
'If you can'? said Jesus. Everything is possible for him who believes.

wow..school starting in 8 more hours time? and the term exam is starting soon..in ard 7 weeks time? and i still got alot to catch up in order to do well? oh man..cannot slack liao..must work hard or parents wont let me go missions..=/

above are my verses for the year 2008..gonna be interesting when u have the faith to believe in him.."Teegan, its time u bless others.."