hmm..today youth EX service was kinda weird..or maybe it was me..last week i just realised my desire for God was satisfied(not ok rite? as in not hungry for him)..so i seeked him and ask him to soften my heart but instead i felt peace in my heart..like dunno why..but mon to fri he never left me and started changing my life..was so happy..den b4 EX prayer today i felt God presense once again..but i realised i still dont have this desperate heart to cry out to God during the service..but why only during service? why other times i can experience more of him? why not in church? i dunno..but there were 2 things he told me today..

Firstly,he asked me "Teegan, who is your God?" i thought and answered..its you..its Jesus..its the holy spirit..but i realised so many times my actions i do..things i fear..dont show that i have a God like him..a true and almighty God..aiyo(shake head)

Secondly, i was asking why am i not desiring for God during the service..he did not answered me..but one thing he told me.."Teegan,are u willing to run this last lap with me?" i smiled,cause i know after this race..he's going to do something great..even if im lost and directionless now..but this lead me to rely more of him..

Then i saw the YOUTH camp video..the word ignite..at that moment,God promised me that that will be the latest time he will minister to me..listen liao feel very cool..lolx..really looking forward to the camp..=)