Focus

Its like everytime you felt you got it. You know how is it like to walk with God and be a overcomer and just own everyone cause you are walking so close to God and nothing else seems to be able to slow you down and often you wonder why are people so unwilling to walk with God when God is just so good and His promises for us are already there even before we think it is and still stands true in the different seasons of our lives. Why? i thought to myself as long as i am able to keep saying "yes" to God everything will just be as how i prayed and how it will turn out as what it is written in His Word that when we fear God, we shall lack no good thing. Just conquer, just overcome, just enjoy walking with God. Not that hard ehh.

Until i met emotions and it became part of my greatest enemy when i couldn't reconcile it with what i wanted to believe in my mind. It consumed my time, effort, energy and at times i just feel like why did God even gave us emotions that are most of the time in the way of us following Him. To be a steward of our emotions are really a pain in the ass and sometimes i feel that i'm at the mercy of my own emotions, or at least im willing to let it be as it is and how i feel about some stuff. It gets tiring, burdensome and even irritating as i try to focus what i think is important in my life.

Yet, as i continue to discover more about God and myself. i thank God that He is really faithful in my life and always extending His love and mercy in my journey with Him. His Word my constant encouragement, His people my family in Him.

And i really miss her. Can i just be honest? will you judge me for being so childish? sigh. God be the center of my life again.